Hi Ana,
is normal for your mother is wrong, do not panic. I was in a vegetative state for three months, everyone needs the time you need. I thought she'd go crazy, well that's normal.
you going to have two lives: before and that starts now. At the moment the pain is pervasive, but there are sparks of love, flashes of light that is to go big by doing small. What I mean is that it is horrible lie and it's horrible up but, in between, a few days, you can feel the love in its purest form, although this feeling lasts seconds. From that day should be left alone with those seconds, those seconds constantly think and do not go round to the terrifying thoughts that haunt us.
must live the pain, not hide, you hide not yours, sky, convinced as to want to be right. Of course your mother at times I would close my eyes and off forever, but, in my opinion, this is not the solution. First for her, then he now has the opportunity to teach you that after a very hard blow can up and then because your brother, your son needs her to learn to live again, to feel completely happy wherever you are. Energy is not created or destroyed, and death is just another step. The body dies, yes, but not the power, soul or whatever you wish to call. He is sending you strength, I still want the same, but can not return, why not ask him. It is impossible. You'll have to get used to living without their physical presence. The more love manage to feel closer to him you will be.
remember when I cried inconsolably Ignasi said to my son, "Honey you do not be sad, do not cry for you, cry for me because even I can not live without seeing you or hug you, because I have fear, because I know how to get ahead, but you do not worry I will learn. Regardless learn. " Because for all the world I want my son to feel bad for me. He lived here I had to live, no one lives a minute or a minute less than what is agreed, nothing and no one has taken anything away. Life is like that. That's what I think, that we have a set time to learn, what we have to learn and when we learned we go.
Ana, I know that now you are aware of your mothers, day and night, even when you're with her. But have to give yourself permission to derrumbarte, so will help you go to therapy, whatever it is. You lost a brother suddenly, when apparently did not play, and you see your parents collapsed as never before had seen. That's a lot. All at home are going to have to work, bereavement groups are a great comfort to many people, going to therapy may also be, learn yoga to calm the mind sure you'll do well ... Little by little you will go see what is most comforting . No hurry, but relentlessly, at your own pace, you will go find the path of peace, joy and happiness. I'm not going to deceive you and you can imagine that the journey is long, but at the end of tunnel going to be reborn and you have the opportunity to live more authentic and loving from now.
Please write me whenever you want. Now I know you're lost, but you are not alone.
A big hug and very, very affectionate to both